题目

英语翻译
原来,从开始,我就被动的接受一切,
只是,我现在知道了,我不要这样的爱情和这样的生活,
如果,我知道会伤害,我可以选择把一切遗忘吗
如果那样,是不是该离开?
通定思痛,到今天我才知道,自己太介意你的选择你的一些决定
那种伤害,已经在我心里扎根,
我没办法相信你能再让我信任,也没有办法让自己再坚持和容忍
我以为成长会让我懂事,只是,在成长后的今天,我才知道我要什么或者不要什么,
不要总是一个人迁就,两个人的生活就一个人过,不要只是因为过去的美好的回忆而现在痛苦的恋着,
不要永远没有办法兑现的承诺,不要总是为你找借口 为你向所有人说好话.
这样的我,真的开心吗?真的快乐吗?
如果,爱,或者被爱,令我承担的是过大的压力和不停的困扰/沮丧/迷茫/失望/,我该怎么说服自己好好走接下来的爱情之旅
如果那种伤痕一直存在,我会真的没有信心走下去
因为,可悲的是我发现我在做一件重复的事:
当那道伤口又开始疼痛的时候,我便拼命的找借口,为自己为爱情努力地在维系和坚持
但是,最初可以用美好的回忆弥补,后来开始自我欺骗,现在,再也找不到理由安慰自己欺骗自己,开始没有能力处理这些伤痕和恨的感觉
因为没有能力再处理这个伤口,开始恐惧开始担心,
我真的担心自己会和这么多年的爱说再见,我也怕自己做出一些连自己都会震惊的举动.
可是,我已经知道有些东西在心底酝酿,在扩散,
为什么,我必须为爱这么辛苦的撑着?
如果找不到支撑点,
如果,有一天,很辛苦的再走回一个人,
那个样子,一定很傻很白痴吧
只是,过去,我愿意为你,什么都牺牲,那就是错误的开始,
也许,那个时候,就开始不平衡,当这种不平衡的力量没有办法处理的时候,也许会冲破一些东西吧.
已经不愿意了,因为,我发现,人生,真的只有自己最爱自己,如果不疼惜自己,就一定无法快乐.
所以,再糟糕的结果,我都能接受吧,如果,如果那是自己内心最想要的.
就顺着心做决定,因为该做的努力,为我们爱情,我真的做的太多太多;
疲惫,就两个字.

提问时间：2021-03-16

答案

In fact,from the beginning,I have a passive acceptance of everything,
However,I now know,I do not want to do this kind of love and life,
If I know that will hurt,I can choose to forget it all
If that is not the left?
Qualcomm will be thinking the pain,and today I know that he had been too mind you your choice of a number of decisions
The kind of injury,has been rooted in my mind,
I can not believe you can trust me,there is no way for her to insist on and tolerance
I thought I would grow up ignorant of everything,but,after growing up,I only know what I want or do not want,
Do not always give a person,two people have been living on a person,not only because of fond memories of the past and now painful,
Do not never promise,do not always find an excuse for you to all for your good words said.
So I really happy?Really happy?
If,love,or loved,so I assume that too much pressure and keep the troubled / depressed / confused / disappointed /,I served their love a good walk the next trip
If there has always been the kind of injuries,I will really have no confidence down
Because,sadly I found that I am doing a repeat of things:
Road when the wound began to pain,I have devoted an excuse for the love for their efforts in maintaining and adhering to
However,the initial can be used to make up for a good memory,then the beginning of self-deception,is now no longer find comfort reasons fool ourselves,can not afford to start dealing with these injuries and the feeling of hate
Because there is no capacity to deal with the wounds,the beginning of fear began to worry that
I am really worried about their own and so many years of love to say goodbye,I have not even afraid of their own will to make some shocking moves.
However,I already know some things brewing in the bottom of my heart,in the proliferation,
I just do not know why,I must loveso hard?
If you can not find strong point,will it collapse?
If,one day,very hard and then go back to a person,
That way,some silly idiot you are
However,the past,I would like for you to sacrifice anything,it is a mistake to start
Perhaps,at that time began imbalance,when the strength of this imbalance when there is no way to deal with,maybe something will break through it.
Have been reluctant to because,I found that life is really only their own favorite,if not their affection,we will certainly not happy.
So again,the result of bad,I can accept it,if,if that is their inner most want.
Following the decision on the heart,as the efforts to do for our love,I really do too much too much;
Fatigue on the word.